Youth Lagoon - July
4:43 AM: This song, this song, this song. I could listen to it in a hundred years and I’m sure it would evoke the same, deep emotions that it did upon first hearing it and it did just seconds ago.
I ask myself why I do this. And I know the answer: I always get away with it. I studied for a final that I took today yesterday for merely an hour and it was worth 40% of my grade. And that hour involved getting a note sheet from a friend and just reading it. And I’m pretty sure that I did fairly well on it. There’s just a lack of motivation.
I feel like I just game every system I come across. Time and time again I put a fraction of the effort I could into whatever it is that I do and time and time again I get similar, successful results. Sure I might not be ace’ing it all, but then again, there’s no reason to.
I don’t know whether it’s luck, privilege, or maybe even fate, but I just seem to get away with everything. Why are there no consequences to my irresponsibility?
I complain about getting everything too easily. This is my life.
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